Just to be vulnerable here, I’ve been dealing a lot with worry the past couple days/weeks. Thoughts will plague me, “Am I doing the right thing?” “Did I hear God correctly?” “What if I’m making the wrong decision..?” “What if it doesn’t turn out good?!” – I’ve been up and down and all over the place with worry and anxiety.
And I feel horrible about it. After I worry about something, doubt comes in and I start getting down on myself for worrying and giving in to that. I know worry is a sin – the Bible says in Philippians 4:6 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Not to mention, worry is never mentioned in the fruits of the spirit in Galatians 5.
So when I was talking with God about everything, it just hit me how many times I had given in to worry and then turned away from it and back to what God was saying. I was so thankful God wasn’t angry with me. That he just patiently keeps bringing me back to him and lovingly reminds me of his promises.
You know what he said? Well I guess not because only I do at this point:
“To be fair Bri, you have been under attack from the schemes of the enemy. You’ve been doing a marvelous job combating worry and anxiety by turning to me over and over again. I’m so proud of you darling. Great job! Keep up the good work! I love you honey.”
And of course this verse floods my mind from Romans 8 “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”
Who is condemnation from? Satan. What had I been feeling? Condemnation.
God is proud of me. Wow. Talk about a perspective change. He saw things TOTALLY different than I did.
The thing I did right every time though? Turning my full attention on Jesus and reaffirming my trust and hope in him. He is faithful. He always reminds me of his promises and truth and the worry and doubt flee every single time.
Here I was thinking I kept falling short, all the while God was saying, “Wow!! Look at my girl! Did you see how fast she turned to me that time?!”
Sheesh. What are you believing today. If its not encouraging, I’d do some re-evaluating.
Oh and the very next verse to the one I mentioned earlier – the one about not being anxious about anything goes something like this, “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” That’s a promise folks.
ahhh. So. Stinkin. Good.